Love Conquers All

download (6)   Part of this blog was healing for myself and making myself better. Maybe it is the writing it is cathartic for me along my path to self healing and love. Telling my most inner darkest thoughts is completely mortifying but the truth sets you free. I have found that I have been more committed to my goals and what I have been doing since I decided to publicize my journey and I think I am pretty good at hiding shit. It really has to do with integrity and making sure I am living up to what I am writing. I can’t be a hypocrite because that is bullshit and people see right through it. I would know it, my children would know it, Jay would know it.

We all have our vices whether it is food, cleanliness, negativity, alcohol, drugs or sex, anything that you put higher than your own self worth is a problem. There is a major amount of my journey, weight loss and doing what I love that is wrapped up in all of this. My last post I spoke of the mind-body connection. Adding one more part of that is personal image. This past year of struggles both professionally and personally and being stalled brought me to where I am right here right now. When I get ideas or feel compelled to write, I act on it right away because I believe that these urges you are supposed to act on. And I can tell you what I think of myself is a struggle every freakin day.

I went from serious self-loathing to being able to accept myself but I had almost lost everything. I was at such a low point, even more than how my previous marriage made me feel because I only had me to blame for the predicament I was in. Completely a sum of small decisions made on a regular basis.  I have been working on loving myself and that will be my end goal. What about you? Part of loving myself was getting rid of the excess weight. I couldn’t stand looking at myself in the mirror. I was always trying to cover it up and at night I was loathing (yes loathe word of the day and think of Jim Carrey in the Grinch) myself. Maybe that is another reason I started drinking more, to numb my senses. Cover it up and fall off the wagon, no get run over by it with wheel marks. The key here is the word “accept” and by saying that I have come a long way. It was also about the negative chatter I had going on in my head.

Even though I had read every book, invested thousands of dollars in myself, had seen so many professional speakers but still I had no idea what was lacking. It wasn’t until I had almost pissed everything away that the answer revealed itself; self sabotage and not loving myself. I never loved myself and everyday is a work in progress. I thought if I lost all the weight I gained would be the answer  but it wasn’t; however it has helped my self esteem immensely and it is part of the puzzle. I also look in the mirror every morning and say I love you to myself and smile. Smile when you say it or self talk to yourself or in the mirror. When I first started doing this I couldn’t look at my reflection and I would cry every time I said it. I am proud of what I have accomplished and I keep setting new goals, so I know I am on the right path. I do know for sure I want to be the best version of me for my family and my friends it is myself that I have the trouble area with. Are any of you with me on this?




I hadn’t really slept for the last 3 years either. When I decided in November of this past year that things had to change I really had to assess. What do I love? I love my children and spouse unconditionally. I love to work with and coach people and I love writing about health and wellness but where is this all heading-helping people. Did all of my past failures lead me to here but what is the answer-helping people. Do you ever sit and wonder what you should really be doing or feel like there’s something missing? It is like you are searching for an answer and you keep beating your head against the wall.

I now sleep better than I ever remember once I made a decision. I finally know what is next for me professionally and that gives me a sense of value. This is the first time in my entire life that I feel myself becoming whole. I am such a giver I find joy in giving but I was never able to receive until recently. That was another big a-ha moment. I shrugged off compliments, pats on the back, and when someone said I love you. I wasn’t worthy. Now instead of saying “no problem”, I say “its my pleasure”. When someone says I love you, I say it back and I mean it. I hug more. Hugging releases endorphins, reduces stress and make you happier.

I have been trying to come from a place of love every single day. It actually is fairly easy and when you do that your eyes really start to open. As my hubs says love is everything, it conquers all. He was of course invariably right yet again (and believe me sometimes I want to smack him for pretty much being right ALL of the time). No matter what happens in your life, it is all about how you handle it. How are YOU going to react? You have complete control over that.

Are you going to let your past dictate your future? So many people were screwed up when they were children. Many people exceeded, took control of their present and their future and became great influencers. The one thing that people like Oprah, Edison, Einstein or Ford said that they had ONE person that believed in them (and these people were severely abused or challenged). And so I challenge you, so what? You can choose to live in that dark space or you can move forward into the light. I know it saying it sounds much easier right? But it really isn’t. It is about a decision and start with small baby steps or some where in the middle or you are ALL in. I believe in you, and I know you can do whatever you set your mind too. Love you and who you are!

Loving yourself

Loving yourself




How do I know which vitamin to choose?


How do you wade through the overwhelming amount of vitamins and supplements they have on the shelf? And if you really want to know much more I have provided 2 great links at the bottom. Most people just want them to work and to get a clean product. What do I mean by a clean product? That they have no herbicides/pesticides, no heavy metals in them or toxins. Kind of defeats the purpose right? Lets shift the thinking here, you do not want a vitamin, you want a whole food supplement. Vitamins are synthetic and we want to stay away from that.

Here are just a few pointers:

-Do not buy ANY vitamins from grocery stores or drugstores. They do not work and they will be bind with gelatin or tar. If you think your vitamin works, think again and drop it in a glass of water. If it doesn’t dissolve in 30 minutes, it is worthless (or what is even cooler as a science experiment put it in a heated oven and if it hisses and spits it is bind with tar). Do you know how many vitamins porta-potty companies find? A TON!!! 80% of what is on the shelf will end up in the sewer system after being ingested. The bottom line you do not have to take a cabinet full of products to keep operating at maximum capacity. If you are having certain health challenges you will need to modify accordingly but for everyday keep it simple.

If you are really eating well, these are just a few things I recommend and also to maximize your pocketbook.

-A whole food supplement-an absolute must. Clean, certified through a third-party endorsed lab, no fillers. I love Juice Plus and Vitacost has some good selections but be careful and read the labels. (
-A clean probiotic that actually survives. There aren’t many out there and this will probably be the most expensive one of your purchase. Again the best one for the money I have found is
-An omega (preferable a 3,6,9). You can get this in oil form. Trader Joes has some really good ones. Carlsons are rated very high. Oil form is cheaper and usually better. (You can also get some great selections on Vitacost).

ANY and ALL supplements should come with a money back guarantee and if they don’t, don’t buy them. The one thing with most supplements you should feel a difference and/or see a difference in your alkalinity. I know I mentioned several product lines several times. I just love their products and the results I have seen from them.

Adding one or all three of the above you will feel better. More energy, you won’t get that 2 or 3 pm drag, improved immune system, better sleep and regularity (yes we can talk about pooping here…that is a very very important gage on how your overall body is performing).

During the winter if you are in snow hell you will need to supplement with Vitamin d3. And for goodness sakes get out in the sun for 20 minutes a day during the warmer months with 40% of your skin exposed. Sun does not give you cancer-it increases your immune system (more on this later). However this doesn’t mean go out and get yourself burned. That isn’t good either.

If you are having other health challenges there is definitely a plant form of a supplement that can help you. Migraines, peri-menopause, post-menopause, infertility and just about every ailment there is something that can absolutely help you. Remember this is about personal choice and letting you know there are many more options out there than popping a pill.

For more in-depth information please see this article;

AND for a complete book with all of the info you will ever need

If you have suggestions about topics please let me know or questions. Look for upcoming rants on cancer, personal care products and vaccines.


It is all about the aqua!

Sunday’s pictures and my first new blog post, uncut and raw surprised the hell out of me. That was an extremely difficult story to write and now it is like the floodgate is off. Watch out! But how and where do I start? I really want to break down everything that I wrote about in more specific and bite sized chunks, so lets start with food and we will add water because we need both for survival. And the last thing I want to do is bore people to death, but y’all have to know so bear with me.

This is really the guts of part of my weight loss. I won’t be preachy with the exception for these things I feel so strongly about and this will be more factual according to what I know and what I have researched. If you don’t believe me then research for yourself. But do it diligently-you can not just input something you want info into google, read one thing and get the complete answer. There are hundreds of books on many of these subjects. And this will piss more people off, because they simply choose to put their head in the sand. That is ok. This is also about raising conscious awareness so you can prevent some of this stuff happening to you, happening to your (our) children.

Lets back track for a minute. How did I get started in all of my knowledge. I have been actually studying this stuff and voraciously consuming any info I could for 12 years religiously. My son got sick when he was a year old because of the toxins in our everyday environment. He ended up at Motts and I had every frickin resident coming in to see him because they only had one case in the last 5 years. To simply explain this he had a growth (an abscess) stuck in the muscle tissue in his neck. A lump, so what does mom think when they say lump? Right….So they had to go in threw his throat to A. get it out or B. biopsy. So they cut him open and what they found was a rock of harden crap. Evidently he had a build up in his body and that is where it decided to deposit and it set off a reaction in his body which treated it like a disease.

So in my search for answers the doctors told me they didn’t know what caused it. They couldn’t tell me.  So in my quest for knowing I started asking around and I was led to an NMD. We had a very eye opening conversation and he told me, throw out all of your conventional stuff, eat organic, no dairy and no grains. Stefan was sick on occasion but out of all of my kids he was the worst. So I threw out TWO 33 gallon garbage bags of toxic crap and replaced it all, put filters on all of my water sources and never looked back. Now he has been sick maybe 2 or 3 times and this is just colds, flus, and everyday commonalities we see in kids.

The water is more important and a a huge huge key in weight loss. You can only go for 7 days without water and 70% of your body is water, so why the hell don’t people drink more? Literally your body is in dire thirst and lack of water makes you fat. It kills your metabolism and wrecks your kidneys  Yes you need to drink about a gallon a day. And don’t get me started on my jug o aqua.

Our water supply doesn’t cut it. You add chlorine to the water and it immediately turns it into a dead property. Yep that is right most of you are drinking dead water. This has been a major issue not just for me but for the country as a whole. And fluoride. One of the biggest scams-I know my dentist friends won’t like this but the truth needs to be told. Fluoride is a by product of jet fuel-check it out for yourself.  We have never had fluoride since maybe 12 years ago and guess what, yeah no cavities. If you think the food and water in this country is not shit, you better think again.

What is the solution? Reverse osmosis? Nope-don’t waste your money. Brita? Nope. Culligan? Not a chance. You need a filter that turns water into a living property again and removes all of the junk and over 100 crap chemicals (PS did you know how much prescription medication is in our water supply). The best ones out there are the rolls royce Kangen (and yep it will set you back but it will last for a good 20 years) and Nikken. And put filters on your showers. Just this alone will help you start cutting lbs. If money is an issue start simple with something you can put on your tap and shower just to get rid of the chlorine alone. Then buy alkaline drops to put in your water.


I spoke about how you need to eat organic. Live food, fruits and veggies, are a must at every meal. And that is what you should be eating 70% of. Ditch cereal, those meal replacement shakes (which every single one does your body more harm than good-whey protein terrible for you think of the goo after left over after manufacturing cheese; soy NOT-your body will be estrogen dominant), or bars and eat real food. Farm raised organic eggs are in the top 5 best foods for you, along with avocados, broccoli and spinach. Meat it is a dead food. So that seems pretty straight forward right? But there are better choices. Turkey is one of the best and you have to watch for sodium, salmon is as well but you have to be so careful of where you get it from. There is a huge difference between table salt and real sea salt. Iodized table salt, it is as bad as flippin sugar. And stay away from juice…aka liquid crack especially children. There is nothing that will rot teeth faster. If you are going to juice veggies and fruit get a juicer that does the whole thing, pulp, fiber and all.

And lets address soda. One of the worst things you can drink. Even alcohol is better for you (yep I said that-but at the same time they both are not good for you and wreaks havoc on the liver). The carbonation will leach calcium out of your bones. And nutrasweet did you know that is an e-coli bacteria? Not to mention the caramel coloring and sugar. Do I need to say more?

How easy is it to grab a carrot?  How about an apple?  I hear more people say eating better is too expensive or it takes too much time. Seriously? I heard a quote the other day that people will spend 5 bucks for Starbucks but they won’t spend 5 bucks for a dozen farm raised organic eggs. That is what it has come down to.

If I am scaring you good. You should be!  It going to take a huge collective effort to start turning this stuff around. For our generation and our children’s.

If you have questions ask. This is just some basic things you can be aware of! Like I said earlier in this post empower yourself and do the research. This is where we are slowly heading as a country but at least we are heading there!


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